Dew on the Leaf

Innalillahiwainnailairaajiuun.. Deg! It was surprised, so bad surprised. I do remember more than a year ago when I joined the 3rd selection of AFS, Carlos' father was sick. And several moths after that, there were news that Carlos' father got sick again and again. We helped him through his hard times. And now, when he is in USA, there was a news that his father has passed away. I was speechless at first, I didn't know what to say, I can't imagine how Carlos feels there. He can't go back to Indonesia now of course. I was afraid, afraid of lossing my parents later. Afraid I can't accompany my parents to their last place in this world. Astagfirullah.. I thought it was a warning from Allah for me. Last time I wanted to continue my education to NTU Singapore, or if I can't pass the entrance exam, I wanted to take FTTM ITB, whereas my parents didn't 100% support me. I didn.t think how I live there, how my parents' condition in Pasuruan when I'm ther...

Pikiran. Hati. Pikiran kita dikendalikan. Kita dikendalikan hati. Pikiran menuju keinginan kita. Namun hati yang paling mengerti apa yang kita butuhkan. Saat pikiran berjalan, hati selalu menuntunnya agar tidak salah tujuan. Namun, saat pikiran dan hati tidak sejalan, harus ke manakah kita berjalan? Ada yang bilang "kadang-kadang emang butuh sendiri supaya bisa denger dengan jelas apa yang hati kita butuhkan" Tapi jika hati kita sendiri juga belum menemukan apa yang paling kita butuhkan, apakah kita harus berjalan mengikuti pikiran tanpa dituntun hati? Ada kemungkinan tersesat? Jelas iya.  So, hati-hatilah, hati !

Kau lucu Matamu indah  Senyumanmu membuat hatiku berdesir Kau baik Tanpa 'embel-embel' Walau orang-orang menganggapmu kejam Sayangnya, aku hanya mengagumimu Ya, aku masih mati rasa Atau mungkin rindu rasa? Atau bahkan miskin rasa? Ah, entahlah Intinya di sini kosong, tak berpenghuni Hampa. Sepi Beku Mati suri Hati ini merindu Menanti dijejali penghuni yang tepat Hati ini meradang Kesakitan menunggu penghuni yang tak kunjung datang Hati ini kaku Tak mengijinkan siapapun masuk selain penghuni yang hingga kini belum jelas keberadaannya Hati ini bisu Pita suaranya masih dibawa pergi sang penghuni yang berlayar entah ke mana  Hati ini tuli Mengabaikan panggilan penghuni lain yang ingin menempati Dasar hati! Berbuat seenaknya sendiri Tanpa bisa kukendalikan dengan pasti

Instagram (Institute of Science Eight Amazing Great and Marvelous) My spirit at school everyday Love you all ({}) Afraid of losing you next year._.

November, 4 2012 Happy 18th Birthday my bestfriend, Novia :)